to be or not to be?

Haha. I'm confused. Should I or should I not? Haaay... Lord, I need guidance.

if only you'd know

i thought you were just inches away
so i tried to advance closer
then you spoke that alien language
you were farther than the moon

if only you'd know
if only you'd know
i've been here for you
longer than you know

i spoke and you listened
but i didn't say it all
i didn't even say a bit about it
i couldn't play the ball

if only you'd know
if only you'd know
i've been singing for you
longer than you know

i couldn't look at those eyes
they make me feel like a child
and i shouldn't roll the dice
i must not lose my mind

if only you'd know
if only you'd know
i want to give it all for you
but it's something i musn't show